A few months ago, Jessica and I were blessed to begin a new blog & business: B.Well. Since that launch we have had our fair share of start-up trials, errors, low points, and victories. Today I wanted to share an update & some thoughts from my heart on this topic.
I am a night owl, so all my pent up emotions, thoughts and ideas tend to surface themselves at around 10 or 11pm. Yeah, I know: great for my health, right? 😛 Most of the time my fervent prayers, my sister’s ears, or the tiny keyboard on my iPhone takes the brunt of the load.
Below I have pasted a little heart-to-heart ramble that I typed out in the dead of night when my head & heart just couldn’t take the load any longer. My prayer is that it will show that no, Jessica and I don’t have it all together. No, we aren’t perfect. No, MLM’s aren’t easy. No, we are not walking an easy path.
But YES it is so worth every day, hour, and minute that we devote to it. Why? Because we are helping people who need us. We are providing an open door to a healthier life to those who are ready to walk through it. It’s a ministry as much as it is a business, and the rewards fill our hearts far more than any trial could ever empty them.
Can I be really, really honest with you guys? Running a start-up business is hard. Because of all the hats you have to juggle, the kinks you have to straighten, and the routines you have to establish, yes. But mostly because the dreams you have are not always realized like you hoped they would be.
I think we all have had the aspiration to be the start-up business that flippin’ TAKES OFF like a rocket the first day it launches 🚀
Reality check: that just doesn’t always happen. In fact, most of the time it just doesn’t happen.
That’s what I wanted B.Well to be. But you know what? It’s not. And that’s ok. It’s ok because we got a different type of “take off.”
It was beautiful in its smallness. It was bold in its newness. It was like a small seedling rather than a rocket ship. It happened with that irrepressible hope that always comes when a seed you placed in the ground suddenly sprouts forth its small green face in the bright sun. B.Well is growing with time, love, and nourishment. More importantly, it is growing in God’s timing.
I have been scared of looking at our site stats, because I don’t want to be disappointed. I don’t want to feel hopeless, like what I’m doing isn’t working. I was trying to load them for the first time in weeks the other night, and you know what? They didn’t load. Our “soybean satellite” internet connection struck again. I reloaded the page. Nope. And then I got a feeling like this was God’s small voice telling me that those numbers aren’t my problem. They’re His problem.
He will bring the viewers & new members. He will make the seeds Jessica and I plant to grow & flourish. Because that’s what we are. We’re seed planters. We give you, our audience; you that amazing person sitting on the other side of the screen… we give you our hearts. We pour out our soul into our content, wrap it up in a beautiful bow, and give it to you. We plant our seed. We can’t force you to view it. We can’t make anyone see it. Only God can make these seeds we plant to grow. We can hustle all we want, but ultimately it’s not us. It’s Him.
This is the story of a start-up. This is the beautiful tapestry that feels and looks so, so messy and knotted and straight-up yucky from behind. But from the front? That’s the beautiful part. God takes us through the knots so that we can see His glory when we view it from His perspective.
Right now, I feel overwhelmed in tangles and knots. I don’t know what my next paycheck will look like. I could if I did the math, but I’m not that type of girl. I don’t know how many new members we’ll get. I don’t know what next month will look like, or if that next post we publish will be the viral one, or if all this hard, hustling work is really going to pay off like I hope and pray it will. But here’s what I do know:
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” (Jeremiah 29:11-13)
I know God gave us this business. I believe that. I also know that He will prosper us if we give this, our precious B.Well, over to Him.
To all of you reading this: thank you. Your eyeballs & hearts mean a lot to us.
To all you entrepreneurs reading this: we know what we’re thinking.
To all of you who have joined the B.Well Team, and put faith in Jessica and I: thank you. From the bottom of our hearts, thank you. You’re our firsts, our guinea pigs, the people we will look to and say, “Hey! You’ve been with us for the start! Look at all of us now!” What a sweet time that will be.
To all of our future members who may be reading this article: We’re on an amazing, imperfect journey. It’s seems a little crazy from the beginning, but oh the end-reward…! We can’t wait for you to join us!
This is our start-up story. It’s messy, overwhelming, and impossible.
Yet at the same time, it’s bright, bold, and yes, achievable.