Hello lovelies! It’s been quite the challenging, odd week over here at the Boyer House. The Lord has definitely been testing my faith and growing me through this time, and that’s what I’m here to share with you today (other than my outfit, of course 😉 )
This past Tuesday, we had to take our dear, dear 3 year old Akita, Tomo, to the vet to be put to sleep. He had a genetic auto-immune defect that was slowly killing him, and we finally had to make the hard decision to end his silent suffering. Friends, that was hard. I mean, hard. I hate to put a shroud of gloom and depression on this bright and colorful blog of ours, but as we all know, death is a part of life; and that’s exactly what I have been learning to cope with these past few days.
A piece of my heart was torn out and left empty when poor, sweet Tomo’s life was ended. Their is a constant tug to fill that vacancy left by his passing. I would be bright and cheery for one part of the day… then something would happen that reminded me of him, and I was sinking down low into the depths of my soul in grief and lack of understanding: why? Why did his life, once so full of joy and adventure, have to end so soon? Why must we suffer in this grief? Yes, he was only a dog; but that dog’s beautiful animal soul was bound up so strong in our heartstrings, it was (in a small way) almost like losing a member of the family.
Though with the grief, my soul was alway being ministered to by our Comforter, and I knew that the Lord had taken him away for a reason. No matter how hard and bitter it seemed to accept this, I knew that Tomo’s death was put to an end for our betterment.
And then came the knowledge that I have to make the most out of this situation. Yes, it’s certainly OK to grieve and mourn our loss, but in the end I must find contentment in what the Lord has given, and taken away.
My Dad once gave me this illustration of how we view our lives: we can either grasp onto it so tightly with our hands, that any shaking of it would be catastrophic and ruin our “plans” for our lives. Or, we can hold it as a gift, with open hands, and recognize that our life is the Lord’s, and He moves it wherever He wills. It is not for us to question why, but to simply accept that He who watches over the sparrows, cares for us so much more. (Matt. 10: 29-31)
Learning true contentment is also a matter of learning to bloom where we are planted. Sure, we can shrug our shoulders and say, “I’ll just accept that God has placed me in this phase of life right now, but that doesn’t mean I have to enjoy it.” No, for in that mindset we are still being discontent, rebellious, and unfaithful. It means we are coveting something that is not ours, and thus idolizing that desire (Colossians 3:5). How is it that the Lord can be our Master, when in fact our hearts are intent upon serving the thing we deem better than what God has given us? (Luke 16:13) I struggle with this constantly. I am always desiring that which God has not given me, or has taken away; and I am not praising the Lord for the joy and the sorrow. I am not making the most of where God has placed me in life, and blooming to the best of my ability in what He has blessed me with.
Ever and again am I lifting up my soul to the Lord, asking for forgiveness, strength, and guidance to persevere joyfully in the place He has planted me in to bud and bloom.
It is a beautiful analogy, “Bloom where you are planted”, and reminds me so much of our journey, as Christians, in sanctification. At the first, we are just a seed. But, as the Lord gives us strength and successively greater zeal to learn His ways and obey His commandments, we burst forth from the seed, and begin our journey upwards as a little sprout reaching for the sun. Finally, when we have done all that the Lord has willed us to do on this earth, we come into full bloom when we are before the Judgement throne, and our Lord Jesus intercedes on our behalf, and we hear the glorious words: “Well done, good and faithful servant…” (Matt. 25:23)
Blouse: Hand-me-down from Mom // Skirt: Ruche (gift, similar) // Shoes: ThredUP // Necklace: F21 (borrowed from Jess) // Earrings: Gift // Lip color: Ulta Matte Lip Cream in Striking // Nail Polish: Butter London in Ladybird (gift from this dear gal)
So, seeing that this is an outfit post after all, I guess I should elaborate at least a little on my thoughts behind this outfit, shouldn’t I? 😉 Well, I have been really getting into painting my nails as of late, and wanted to lacquer them with a beautiful shade called Ladybird from Butter London polish, that we girls received from our dear blogger friend Ashley.
Well, I am learning that with coloring your nails, you also have to coordinate your outfits with your nail lacquer, unless of course you really don’t care about looking effortlessly classy and put-together (definitely NOT me!). So, I decided that if I was going to make this outfit work, I would need to tie in some red accessories to pair with my red nails. I am rather happy with what I came up with, in the end. There is something so bold and girly about pairing red with pink, and I really love the out-of-the-box effect it gave my outfit.
How do you find contentment, and bloom where you are planted in life?
Ever paired pink & red in an outfit before?
-Charlotte, the youngest sister & singer